I can relate to this. There is something about the feel of fall in the air (even when I feel that feeling on a cooler summer day) that triggers past feelings that occurred when traumas happened in my life. As time passes in mt totally new location it has helped (10 years) but I still notice twinges of that feel. But I love the warm colors of the changing leaves & the fact that I the grass isn't growing as fast so not having to constantly mow my fields.

Actually experiencing the seasons, not just a feel in the air like in So. Calif is good too. Every season here has its beauty....in the spring the dogwood & redbud trees are so gorgeous too. Like longer lasting falls when the leaves change & stay on the trees for long enough to enjoy them.