This is exactly how I really feel. This got me thinking this week though. As a teen my BFF was not another teen.. but a 40 year old lady I worked with at a retail store. I like to think I am an old soul. Our arch enemies at work were Tara and Paula. Paula was one of those really nasty people who liked to go for your weakness and pretend she wasn't. At the same time she was an utter loser. She also stole friends. Tara had been our friend until Paula came along and then she sort of became her minion. I ended up leaving the job because of Paula. Tired of being judged and frankly losing.

Years later I happened to run into her -- she was working retail and I was buying something. I didn't recognize her. But the moment I realized who she was I left. She made me feel bad about myself. But of course, she wanted to be BFFs. Of course... she wanted to find out all about me so she could use any fact to judge me. I just turned on a dime and left.

Then my long term BFF friended me on Facebook. I was thrilled to put her on and see what was up with her. Then within a few months she friended Paula. How could she friend Paula? Weren't we arch enemies with Paula? How could she do that? It just made me feel like my BFF is just another one of those people who will do anything for "friends". Even if those friends aren't real friends and she would sell me out for "friends." I unfriended her immediately.

Now my BFF facebooked me and wanted to know why she hasn't heard from me. And I know in my heart it is crazy to be angry with her. I know I should just refriend her. But, I just can't. I just can't.

If she would Facebook friend Paula.. she isn't the person I thought she was.