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Originally Posted by Emily Fox Seaton
This is exactly how I really feel. This got me thinking this week though. As a teen my BFF was not another teen.. but a 40 year old lady I worked with at a retail store. I like to think I am an old soul. Our arch enemies at work were Tara and Paula. Paula was one of those really nasty people who liked to go for your weakness and pretend she wasn't. At the same time she was an utter loser. She also stole friends. Tara had been our friend until Paula came along and then she sort of became her minion. I ended up leaving the job because of Paula. Tired of being judged and frankly losing.
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Yeah, that is what happens when you have to deal with a series of events in your life that makes you feel worthless.
I've had issues with envying people who have something that I want, such as money, fame, or that perfect relationship for a long time now but my problem got to the extreme that it is at now when my mother passed away about 4 years ago and I found out that she lied to me my whole life. If somebody has something that I crave and they come in my life or get in my way, I see them as a threat and act accordingly.
I can't offer any advice because I don't know how to change myself. It might just be best to find a way to deal with it on our own.