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Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967
I can relate to most of your story. It's hard and often painful when you're so sensitive and emotionally reactive and when it's hard to regulate your emotions. I know about bullying as well. I empathize with you. Keep working with your therapist and be gentle and compassionate with yourself. You'll get there. Sending big hugs.  |
Thank you for your kind words and for the hugs. You're right... I do need to be gentle, compassionate and kind with myself. I am far too hard on myself, and I think because so many others have beaten me up verbally over the years. I take it all in, and then feel like I am not a good enough person. I am sorry that you yourself have gone through experiences of bullying. ((hugs))) to you as well! It is so hard to be the brunt of that. And, yes, it is very painful to be so sensitive and emotional... I hate it. I absolutely hate it about myself. I wish I could be stronger and less sensitive. But if someone hurts me, abuses me, takes advantage of me or tramples on me, I explode on them with all my rage. It's as if I make them pay for all the other abuse I've endured. I need to learn how to reign it in and respond appropriately and with strength. ARGH.