I'd talk to your doctor just in case.

I don't think about my own death much. When I am dead I won't know any different. The only thing I worry about is how hard it would be on others.

But I am scared of other people dying. It's getting worse lately. I unexpectedly lost my son in law last year and it messed all of us up. I pretty much fear losing people all the time. Talk to your therapist, see what she says