Welcome to PC Kioko! I also have severe abandonment fears - near panic level also sounds like what I experience. I take paroxetine also. At a higher dose it does damp down all my feelings so controls symptoms but as you probably know psychotherapy and self work are the best treatments for personality disorders. There is hope for this, people who know me IRL say I'm much "better" these days although I still have many struggles and experience much pain. I wish you luck and please keep posting!