Yes, it is. I think generally I have no idea where I am in my life, or where to head for, what to aim for, expectations of myself etc...

I am beginning to have a degree of acceptance, that I need to take care of myself, but my strategy at the moment is just to avoid everything, which doesn't lead to much enjoyment.

I think the trust thing is important, I can relate to the all or nothing. But maybe it is also about taking a few "risks", trying things out while reminding myself, I will be ok and it won't always lead to disaster.

I think I rely too heavily on others in making me feel ok. I had a tough week with anxiety this week, which miraculously disappeared when I had some positive feedback at work from someone. I need to find a way of doing this for myself.