So things are not going well still. I may have blamed my H more than I should concerning this situation (though I go back and forth in my head about this). It continues to put a big strain on our marriage. Do not want to discuss further, only want to document that he is mad at me. He makes me anxious sometimes and I am not sure if I should be worried or it is all in my head. Many people know about my username, my T, for example. Though it may not be a perfect record this is a place where I vent my emotions. Though I may make assumptions and not always think things through, this is where I vent my anxieties.....