I too have an addictive personality but have been on benos for the last five years. For the first year I had ativan which I did abuse but I was then put on klonopin which I don't feel any kind of high on so I don't abuse it. I only take it when my anxiety is affecting my life. I only feel a lack of anxiety on it. Most times I need to take one before I drive because my anxiety is more unsafe than driving while on benzos.