Hey Krow,

Sorry to hear that things are so rough for you right now. Moving out and starting fresh is something that's definitely worth thinking about for the future. Is there any way you can start saving up for that while in school?

It definitely sounds like you're struggling a lot with gender dysphoria. Is there any way you could find a therapist/counselor/etc to speak to? There are a lot of people who specialize in gender dysmorphia/transgender issues nowadays.

Your relationship sounds like it's quite complicated. Does your partner know about your gender dysphoria issues? It sounds to me like you may have to reiterate your asexual and aromantic nature as some people will acknowledge and go along with everything you say at the beginning of a relationship because they like you so much, hoping that you'll one day change to become what they want.

From what I've heard from my friends who struggle with trans and gender dysmorphia issues, family can either be the strongest support or the biggest headache. While it sounds like your father is fairly accepting, your mother sounds problematic in that she's not only unsupportive but critical of the way you are. If you're a lot closer to your father, perhaps you can approach him in confidence about how to navigate around your mother?

Hang in there. I'm wishing you the best.