yeah, i feel that way too almeda.. and mine hasn't left town that i know of. i cannot possibly ask.. but it would help me a lot if i knew that just on a blue moon he happened to wonder how i was doing. It would help to know he thought about any of his clients actually... then there would be that once and a while chance for it to be me.

tomorrow is the last day that i will have company. After that i wont even have friends around until the 6th. All alone. i dont mind some of it.. lots to get done... but it's the nights i dread.

one week till T time.

confused.. my heart breaks for you honey. you sound so alone and down. Take whatever comfort your T is offering and allowing.. call if you need him... you can work on the guilt later.