I definitely would be jealous over something like this. I'm pretty certain though that my T doesn't do anything like attending the physical wounds of his patients.
On the other hand I don't know what he does with his other patients because he never talks about them and I'm very happy about it. I think if he would mention any other patient I would confront him by asking why did he tell that to me, why did he think that I needed to know it or why did he himself felt the need to tell such a thing to me. You see, it's not only me being observed and analysed - I observe and demand him to analyse himself too.
More about jealousy - it sounds quite normal and human to feel jealousy over this. Attending the wounds means taking care physically and it seems quite natural to want that too. I have felt jealous to the previous patient leaving about my T talking to her at all. Once I overheard through the door when the previous person was leaving (my T has two doors in his room: one for entering, one for leaving, patients never meet each other in the waiting room) on the last session before summer holiday that she is going to email as they agreed. I became mute because of the huge wave of jealousy. It was my last session before 6 week summer break too and it was only during the last 5 minutes that I was able to say what was it about. Then the T made an exception to his not-talking-about-other-patients rule and told me that the previous person was not going to email him casually but that she was leaving to abroad for six months and she was supposed to email to see whether they can continue working over skype.
Do you think you could talk to Kashi about these feelings?
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