Me too, and I think if my T took care of me in that way it would definitely be an incentive to hurt myself more. I think it would be easy for me to become addicted to that feeling of being physically cared for.

Growly, I would feel jealous too and I would probably think about SHing so that I could be looked after in that way as well. I don't think you should feel guilty for your feelings. I think it was rather thoughtless for Kashi to share that information with you.