I'd SH more and deeper too, if T or a nurse (with T present) would dress the wounds.

Oddly though, when T has offered cream for my scratching in session, I always decline. Not like she's going to apply it for me, and well I don't want to bother a nurse...

I don't think Kashi should have told you that. I don't think your feelings of desiring such compassion and care are wrong or bad - they're valid feelings.