Hi ElsaMars.I can feel for you.I have a lower back slipped disc which prevents me from walking normal & not too much.Pain 24/7.I can understand about the anxiety,anger,depression.Enough about my problem.Have you tried capsasin? (sp) It gets real hot & if you use too much it will burn like hell! If you do try it,get the 25% capsasin & not the 75%.It isn't expensive-maybe $6 or $7.The pepper spray the police use is made with this.I hope it helps.It works for my wife with a bad knee.