I relate. I was going to school as an English major, and had an interested in writing a novel, not necessarily to sell, but just to see if I could do it. After the pdoc put me on Invega, my mind changed. I no longer was interested in writing or even going to school. Now that I'm on Seroquel, I can honestly say I am creative and will get back to what I know best. It may just not be the right AP. Some change personalities, some seem to do nothing, and others make me who I used to be, which is good. Consider looking into another AP.