My self esteem right now is really low. I don't feel good about myself at all. I don't like aspects of myself, and I see behaviors in myself that I don't like. Last night someone told me I was annoying them, and that hurt. I am so sensitive, and I felt like he doesn't like me.

I've heard that this person thinks I am all "drama", and I wonder if I am. I have certainly been involved in or have attracted drama over the years, but I try to steer clear of it even though I will speak my mind with people. So I told this person what i had heard, and he got annoyed with me and told me so.

Maybe I just don't belong on this planet anymore. I want to just die and hide away from the world, curl up in a ball and never come out.

And I have a big interview Tuesday with ten people and have no idea how to even prepare or how I will ever get through it. I feel overwhelmed by it and wish I could cancel or reschedule it. I wish I had more confidence in my abilities, but I am also struggling in my career right now. I have a hard job and it's really complex. I don't know how I will get through this interview or pretend that I am confident when I'm not. I need help....