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Originally Posted by Wander
Depression is still crushing me but today has been a bit better. I think getting out of hospital for hours the last two days and going to the gym has helped. Today I just went to my parents and hung out with them. They are such a great support. My lifeline right now. Soon, hopefully, I will be allowed unescorted leave and will be able to go on walks and possibly even drive myself to university (not sure if I can drive after TMS). Today I also had my first day of productive study - I actually think I leant something and am closer to being ready for my test on Tuesday. I can only do my best.
I have been sleeping 12 hours a night plus an hour nap during the day. i think I am going to ask if I can hold back on some night meds; I take 25 mg of Chlorpromazine, 20 mg of Temazepam and 10 mg of Saphris. I would like to back off the Chlorpromazine first if possible. I just hate waking up feeling like I've been hit by a truck and then feel drugged for an hour or two.
TMS starts tomorrow. They say positive effects usually don't start until the second week so I will have to be patient and try to be hopeful that it works on me. The depression is hell but at least I am stable there and not swinging up and down anymore. I think that might be the Lamotrigine kicking in. I am at 100 mg now. I am on so many meds. I hate it. My pdoc is hoping to stabilise me on Lamotrigine, Lithium and Saphris with Clonazapam PRN. Then slowly take away the Saphris and see how I go. Well, thats our medium-term plan.
I must be doing better today because I usually find it so hard to post but here I am jibber-jabbering away. HUGS to all who need them. Although I don't respond to many posts I wish you all well and care about you.
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I hope TMS works well for you.
I have been considering TMS, although the nearest TMS treatment center is 2 hr. drive. We will see what comes about.
I truly admire your courage and your dedication to being as well as possible.
I also have CFS/ME and my pdoc thinks this makes the MI much more difficult to treat. (In that CFS/ME/SEID affects the central Nervous System.)
have any of your pdocs thought in a similar way about CFS and brain function?
I hope things start "looking up" for you. You deserve a break so very much.
My heart goes out to you, Wander.
Please keep us posted.
Sending Much Love Your Way -

(((((( Wander ))))))

WC