Now i'm down - needing support - my T scheduled herself with me (rather than the front desk) because she knew i'd need it. I called today to confirm... this is so messed up... originally, today was T day (scheduled by the front) but T told me she'd be gone today and the front desk "knew that". So she scheduled Friday. I call today and they still had me listed for today but said she's not in and they have me for the 2nd. Not only do they not have me down for Friday, they scheduled someone in that spot.

*cries*

I've got alters and one attacks the body when more than a week pass without therapy. As i found this out today and learning that yet another week will pass, that alter took over and desperately sought to harm the body (while at work). Some reason, there is no SI tool to be found (unlike every other day).

I'm just at a loss. i can't tell the front desk or her how angry I am or scared because i cannot allow self to be like abuser. But I don't know how to get through this next week. Some major stuff came up and i needed to be there.
Why is it always ME who has to reschedule when there's a glitch?!!? Why not the person they messed up with?!

=( kiya