Found out today that my T appnt for friday has been double booked and I'm the one who is supposed to not show up.

This sent a whirlwind of wanting to SI sooooooooooo badly at work - looked ALL OVER for the box cutters. Can you believe there wasn't one to be found?! i even found one handle and the d*mn blade had been removed. honestly.

Looked all the rest of the day until the feeling finally wore out. I'm still bummed and mad and scared because now i have to go another whole week without an appnt and i won't be able to tell t how i feel. bites!!!!!

i don't believe i can get through the whole week w/o SI. that's usually the pattern when t is gone.
kiya