I think this is a good idea. A lot of people suggest therapy to me but whenever I get any form of it I don't find it helps at all. So I have decided not to pursue it in more depth. By trying this... you could get a sense if this would work for you. My best experiences in counseling were people with ideas that I had not seen before or other ways of looking at the world. Sometimes you just can't break out of your own thoughts. I also can't help but see the "Interested in online counseling" -- try Betterhelp today (at the top of my screen here) so.. that Betterhelp thing.

I don't know if you considered a "life coach" thing. I only say that because I feel like you need someone to give you confidence. It seems to me like you are extremely self aware but only lack the constant "you can do it" from a stable source. Also some of those are by phone. But it also costs money.

Finally have you considered self help? I have gotten some very good insights that I think were better than "therapy" by the right self help book. Of course, you have to read a lot but.. they are cheap and you can refer to them a lot.