((((((((((Tulips, Confused)))))))))))))
thanks. *sigh* there's just nothing more to say.... it can't be fixed... i don't even know if she'll call tomorrow in regards to the message i left. i don't even want to go back and deal with it- ya know? Like i just don't care any more. Like it re-affirms that i really can only depend on myself and my bad coping skills (at least they work). At least they're there.

Confused - your t is right, a person cannot love and abuse another. My mom doesn't get it - she tells me how much my dad (abuser) loves me and how if he knew how i felt, he'd be really hurt.