It appears to me (reading your threads) that not having money to buy all the stuff you want to buy (a nice flat, a car, holidays, a private therapist) is what is causing you pain. But it seems that you simply expect your therapist to wave a magic wand and poof! all your problems will vanish. Really your main problem seems to be money and the fact that you don't have any because you don't work. I honestly don't think you need a therapist. You need a job instead. I would focus on that.