I had some leftover atarax pills (I know what I did was very wrong) but I took one because that used to knock me dead, it is currently 2 am, it's been 2 hours, and right now I am extremely tired, but also afraid, and pff.. I just wich the 24th would come sooner check in with my psych, see what we can do, what she legally can do because it is not really in her powers to fully threat me. So hoping for the best, right now I am napping through the day, over all I got about 6 hours of sleep during the day, and it seems like this would be the way for me to sleep. Somehow my brain refuses to sleep during the night.