I looked again. Whyyyyyy am I doing this when I know better????

Her boyfriend added another picture and it showed an unknown female hand, holding up her hand to show off the ring. I'm actually JEALOUS of the woman who is holding up yer hand. I think I long for it to me...for me to be close to her.

Why am I not looking at the relationship as a whole? She couldn't meet my needs in therapy, so how on Earth is she going to meet them in another capacity? Why am I in fantasy land over someone who avoided me? I do believe that her relative passed away, however, I think she didn't have to cancel the appointment and unlike what she said about rushing out of town, I KNOW that this isn't true (she didn't even have to explain, though, she just coulda said she needed to cancel).

Why do I have such a desire for connection with someone who cannot offer it to me AND avoided me. I'm literally lying her, looking at the other female hand and envying her. WTF?!

*plz excuse typos/on my phone and VERY emotional