4 months of dating a dude she vaguely mentioned to me, along with intimating she has her own attachment issues (by suggesting many books to read about love and attachment) and now she's engaged to the dude. I'm happy for her. I do long to be close to her. Very jealous of that hand who gets to be there with her in this moment. Ugh! I'm focusing on someone outside of myself, like she has the key to make me happy.