Sorry to hear about your son in law.

Yeah the same thing applies to other people for me too. Basically the way I see death in general has changed.

In the past when I thought about death, it was mainly about the dying part, like what I would feel as I am dying. If there would be no pain, I saw dying as something not that scary. In fact, in times when I've been really depressed I've thought that if not for it effecting my loved ones, I would actually like to be dead. I saw death as being at peace, as escaping everything bad that I had to deal with. But now suddenly the idea of permanently losing consciousness and ceasing to exist is terrifying.