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Originally Posted by Trace14
Do you ever feel like your memories keep you from speaking? A memory is so over whelming your mouth can not move to say anything? 
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YES!! I have memories that come forward where I cannot talk. I have had flashbacks both visual and emotional where, when I have them I slur my words and can't talk.
I have had conversations with my husband and he gets and attitude and then I can be talking to him "now and past" and I begin to slur my words. It's like I am talking to him now, but in the past when he was being mean or drunk. Also, my husband has a tendency to interrupt me and talk over me or turn things around when he doesn't want to admit he is wrong but chooses to focus on my faults instead, "he deflects", which is something of a habit for him from when he was an active alcoholic for the first ten years of our marriage. He can at times have "dry drunk" behaviors.
Also, what I have come to realize is that sometimes with my husbands need to interrupt and talk over me I can experience early flashbacks where my father never let me finish a sentence because he was constantly correcting my english. That is not something one should do with a child that is slowly learning to talk and communicate. The child has to form that connection "first" and THEN gradually gain more language skills.
The other thing my therapist explained to me, and I have also read is that our brain stores memories in different areas of the brain, some things get stored in parts of the brain where there is no language.
The other thing is that when someone is recalling something that traumatized or shocked them, fight, flight, freeze" the hipocampus slows down almost shuts down and things get stored in the amygdala. So, that memory tends to be fragmented.
One of the things I tend to do is "repeat", to someone else it sounds like all I am doing is repeating, but what I am really doing is adding an additional piece to that memory/flashback that I had not noticed before because of how that experience was fragmented because it shocked or traumatized me in some way.