Thank you everyone for your advice...

Well yes, perhaps I misused the words. I meant that I'm searching for PhD programs abroad or institutions & organizations that offer fully-funded studying fees + stipends.

I realize that PhD is hard, & with my mental issues it'd be hard, but that wouldn't move me away from my determination on reaching my purpose. My career, also, requires me to have PhD, so this mandatory, not luxury, for me.

The center where I work have many coworkers who finished, or otherwise are still doing, graduate studies. But most of them just go the easy way & complete their studies here in Egypt. I'm determined to travel & study in a different environment, even if it's so much harder, I'll take the chance, so I wouldn't regret later taking the easier common path!

I don't want to live in Egypt, & I'm not a person who prefers stability in any one place anyway. I love change. So after finishing my PhD somewhere else, I'll go wherever my journey can take me until it's over for me. I'll "try" as much as possible to do free independent research, even if I have to do it "beside" my what I'm obliged to do. That's how I did it in my Master's, & that's how I intend to keep my research...

I also can't wait until I heal from my psychological problems. I'll keep trying to heal (as I've been doing for the past 17 years or so!), but I won't stop my life, waiting for myself to be cured or get better. What if I can never get better?!! Going on with my life is an integral part of my seeking to heal...