Now I'm freaking out because I got a rice notice. That means the board of ed is discussing my employment. The last time I got a rice notice I got fired. So they may not be approving me to start my new job. So I'll be jobless after all.

I'm supposed to go on Wednesday to fill out paperwork so I guess I'll find out then.

If I lose this job it means I've been blacklisted in education and will have to look for a receptionist job or something. Which is fine, I don't want to stay in education anyway. But I want to know what the board is saying about me because my supervisors told me that it was no misconduct on my part that got me fired, just lack of skill. So wtf.

I might just be catastrophiZing but I don't think so.