I am married, and my husband has been extremely supportive throughout my mental health struggles. He also has some mental health issues, but nowhere near the extent that I do, so he at least understands to an extent.

But, as I have been majorly depressed for over a year and a half, it's really putting a strain on our relationship. We have both come to the realization that there are actually three of us in this relationship - me, him, and my depression. And we try our best to distinguish between issues we have between us, and issues that are a result of my depression. Although, that doesn't keep things from getting tense during my worst times.

I have no sex drive, and most of the time even just human contact is not something I am capable of. So, there's really no snuggling, no kissing, no intimacy or romance. Basically, he has just resorted to the "best friend" role at this point (we were best friends for several years before becoming romantically involved).

And although I know that deep down, I really do love him, it's the main emotion I am really struggling with. There's so much going on in my head (such as just trying to make it through each day alive) that I don't really seem to have the capacity for love. I hate it, and I hate what it seems to be doing to him because he knows I am like this right now.

Has anyone else dealt with this? Being incapable of actively loving someone, even though you are technically in love with them, because your mental health is just too overwhelming?