I'm on 30 benzos because my life sucks. I took 40 yesterday and my mom caught me stoned and didn't let me drive but it's not like I was going to drive that day anyways. She got really mad and why not?

"I get you 4 jobs teach you to drive". NO you should have done that a long time ago but you buy a bottle of wine and drink yourself to sleep because you're lonely and chose my step dad over me and my mental health. Now you want your new boyfriend that cheated on you recently to help me cut weeds. **** him leave me alone. I will just keep doing drugs if that's the case.

I've been in this town in the middle of no where for 7 years and nothing to show for it. Except a grade 12 and an apartment which I don't care about anymore because I don't want to live alone because I have no friends.

If I recovered from schizophrenia earlier on in life, it would be much better. I'd probably be in college or university but I'm stuck at this grocery store stocking shelves and they are like you should work full hours how about no my life is stressful as it is I want to work part time and doing that sort of work isn't something I like being around so many people.

These drugs are the only thing from keeping me from being suicidal.