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Originally Posted by sinking
Thank you both for answering.
anything really. i seem to not be able to enjoy anything and every little problem becomes another reason for i want to die. i only see the negative side of things and cant stand anything. im just SO tired of everything. giving up or thinking about giving up is easier, relaxing and reassuring.
Crypts_Of_The_Mind, why fighting seems to not be much important to me anymore as i have already made plans. im not looking for a reason to stay. but thank you for the input it could always become useful.
i think i have some issues with food, i always want to be underweight but since im not constant (months of heavily restricting and months where i binge every other day) i dont think we could say i have an ED.
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I went through the ups and downs concerning suicide also. The point is, in the end, even my attempts wound up being half-hearted. Why? Something was holding me back. I'm not saying I never tried or never wanted to, I did have one "serious" attempt, but even it wasn't as bad as it could have been. This is how I believe you are. I'm not saying you are attention seeking, I sure wasn't. Just that in order to heal you will need to accept that something will always hold you back. That's a good thing. Something still keeps you here. You DO DEFINITIVELY have a purpose. Whether or not ED is a problem of yours, I don't know, but I do know ED is more a psychological thing than a physical thing and it isn't til the "crisis" stage you start displaying outward signs. It may be worth looking into before you get to the crisis stage. If nothing else, do some personal research, see what you think.