((((Inny))) I'm sorry to hear things are so rough for you. We often do not know what God has for us, nor why he would allow bad things to happen to good people. Mind your thoughts friend, as you are catastrophizing a tad I think? I know and believe that you are feeling like nothing will ever work out good for you, but you simply must draw from your friends here at PC and maintain that things can change. Look at how smart you have become about these people! While you can't change them, nor how they "are" YOU have changed in that you won't allow yourself to become as them. That's a good thing. I hope your situation changes sooner rather than later, but it will change. Rest in God and pull back away from the current situation if you can... work at not thinking the worst. Try to think of what would be ideal, and then work from there to find something towards that goal. Good wishes!