Welcome!

I absolutely understand. Depression and Anxiety have led me to sabotaging that which is good in my life too. I have a history of doing so and 'running away' when the anxiety about things (usually fear of failure is the source). I have sabotaged my relationships, sabotaged careers, sabotaged what in hindsight may have become promising life changes. The ball is in place and beginning to roll regarding a major life change right now actually and I am frightened; frightened of ruining a great relationship and potentially bright future.

I am desperately trying to cope with this. Unlike prior occasions I have some new coping skills however and I have thus far headed off my instinct to 'burn and run'.

Rvencrow - Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT) has helped a great deal. I have been working on my negative thinking patterns; like B&W thinking, fortune telling, and tendancy to catastophize.

Do you feel up to looking into this? It is a lot of work but can be helpful if you can get past doing the homework.

Things that have helped are 'Decatsrophic Thinking' worksheets and comparing negative thoughts. Namely, a hard look at whether or not our negative thinking is actually working for us.

I give you a big hug and hopeful encouragement.