I have been living on my own the whole summer in some very nice places in the forest. You can do that here it is legal. I have not experienced a great split between my two ego states which is highly unusual I have been in a zen like state pleasant unless it was raining then I was grumpy.

Of course I brought my pretend friends but they were much more transparent and only active if I called on them. I think thats is good too. But thing is now it will get cold and I must return to the city. I have found a place to rent not legally but best I can do. In the basement of a house if flats. Small but OK. I will have one room and across the hall is a lavatory where I can get water. No one else uses it even if allowed. The room is if course just mine.

I wonder how much my city personality will come forward and how much of the wholeness I had this summer will go away. I can already feel a difference in me from being able to be online. I have a job coming up too, two days a week so unless I want to drink I will have money. I live cheap.

The city is so dead. And I' m yet to learn how to relate to people on a deeper level. Which I don't want to but they say it is healthy.

I'm already longing for spring. I don't mind seasons but they make me have to live inside a house. Even chores are more boring inside. I will probably be bored and watch a lot of movies. I hate modern life.