Physically yes I'm human. Emotionally., no I'm not. According to what everyone says, I'm not human because I haven't experienced things that are said to make us all human.
I've never been in love before. No one has ever loved me back. I'm 43 years old. It's too late now to think of being in love because it didn't happen before and can't happen again. Why would it. Who would love me? no one else has.
I've never experienced happiness before. I've been excited and thilled. But I haven't experienced so much joy that I'm brought to tears. I've never experienced that level of happiness before.
No one likes me on the planet. All my relatives despise me. I find it hard making friends. Only my daughter loves me. My dad loved me but he died. Thats about it. I've never been loved by anyone other than my dad and my child. So I can't be human. I've never known true love or romantic love. I can't be human. I've never felt intense happiness. I can't be human.
I have more in common with an animal or a stuffed toy than I do with other human beings. I'm the walking dead.
Does anyone understand me?
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