I am graduating college in December. Until this evening I had made up my mind to pursue a masters degree in an art field. I felt I needed 2 more years to figure out what I want to do, create a better portfolio, and make connections and get more job experience, etc. It would also not be bad to get a masters degree.

(I also find working pointless so if I get into a program that gives a fellowship, tuition award, and if I can get a part time job elsewhere, I would be happy simply studying. But I also am ambivalent about school since I find it too restricting.)

Because of this plan, I have recently been focusing on my thesis rather than applying to internships for the fall semester. I feel that without another internship under my belt, I am an undesirable job candidate. I also do not like the jobs that my current internship is preparing me for. Even the contacts I've accrued do not really hold the same interests as me. However, because of my intent on going to grad school, I put on hold the internship search because I was feeling overwhelmed. I suppose I can't do everything. (While a well packed resume would be good on a grad school application, there are other things I need to prepare, such as an audition type thing (no specifics here) and written portfolio, both of which have suffered due to my being a late bloomer, aka mental problems haha.)

Today someone I do not and should not trust told me that people who have masters degrees don't get jobs easily because they are seen as too snobby for entry level positions. I shut him down completely but I do need to consider this. I feel personally that I can make whatever I want happen, but I think that I have become too polarizing in my need to stand up for myself in the environment I'm currently in, so I want to ask for advice here over whether a masters would actually be bad. And whether I should apply for a masters in another field--film, for example, or even psychology, or writing.

Now that I'm thinking about this, I really don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I don't know what I want because I've spent a long time being depressed and a bit out of sorts etc etc etc... I don't want to spend time not accomplishing anything just to explore what I want. I want to know now.

I fear that I will need to take some time to lie low and figure things out though. But on the other hand, who really cares if I "follow my dreams". I don't have dreams. Honestly the only thing that matters to me is if I achieve a lot. I could be overthinking this. I don't know if I'm letting others influence me too much or if I'm too unyielding and need to listen to others more.

So any advice would be appreciated. What made you want to get education further than your bachelors? If this is unclear, I will be happy to answer more questions.