Hey, Kioko, welcome to PsychCentral (PC). I see in your signature you like SEA history, I've studied a bit of Vietnam's (have a BA in history) with much interest.

I was once dx'd with borderline personality disorder but mostly had therapy for general anxiety disorder. I'm not thrilled with abandonment either, since my mother was sick from before I was born and died when I was a toddler. I had some attachment issues because of that and things that happened afterwards. But I agree with Fuzzy, therapy and self work is the best help.