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Originally Posted by Shadix
Does anybody get chills at the thought of dying and just everything being over? All my life I never thought about death this way, but I noticed that ever since I started taking an antidepressant(Wellbutrin), suddenly I started having these thoughts. It is like wall was torn down and I suddenly see something that was previously hidden. And I find myself attracted to these thoughts for some reason. Like a person on a cliff who feels tempted to look down but then becomes terrified when they do.
But could this be the normal way of thinking about death? Was my previous state of not thinking about it this way the abnormal one?
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What do you think fuels some of my obsessions?
Yes, I'm scared of dying. I'm scared of being powerless and forgotten by humanity. I'm scared of being just one of billions of people in the world who have been forever silenced.
Some might call me crazy, but I'm well convinced that in 30-40 years, the aging process might be able to be halted or even become reversible. If the aging process can't be reversed biologically, than I am convinced that it will be possible to implant people with cybernetic augmentations to circumvent their biological weaknesses (aging, disease, physical limitations, ETC), or even lock people's consciousness into computers so that they can live on forever in a digital world.
I'm not the only one who things this is possible. Look up something called Transhumanism. There is a whole movement of innovative people investing time and resources to make such things possible. Additionally, look up a term called "posthuman" and look up the biohacking movement.
These things give me some kind of hope that death is just another disease like cancer that can either be cured or circumvented somehow. If you're like me and can't have any hope or faith in any type of religion, than having hope in the innovation of humanity is a viable alternative. After all, you're still young so the probability of you living long enough to see some of these innovations happen is extremely high.
This is where I put my faith in because it is something that I can understand since I don't do spiritual stuff and I suck with emotions, but I excel with technology related stuff. If something like this doesn't happen, than at least I lived my life in a beautiful fantasy and didn't have to face the pain that is reality.
Luckily, there are plenty of extremely intelligent and educated people that think these things are not only possible but probable. I only hope that I can either become intelligent enough to benefit them or make enough money to be able to help fund their innovations.