You seem to articulate yourself well. So that's one thing you do well and I have never even communicated with you before now. You don't need to know what you want to do in life right now. In fact, it's best if you don't because if you think you do you will focus on that one thing and then later most likely find it's not what you thought it was and need to look for something else or just always be dissatisfied. It's been that way ever since my parents were your age and maybe even before, I don't know. Honestly though, in today's time, a lot of people never get to use their college degree anymore. At least, that's what the younger people I know have told me. (I am 43, and no longer work due to disability so rely on others for info regarding things like that.) Later, you may find you want the marriage and children or maybe not. It's ok either way. Nobody can direct your life other than you. When you get out of high school, you can go for a "general studies" diploma in college or go to a community college or trade school or just find a job that doesn't need further schooling til you are ready to return to school. You can even go to school online or get employed online. There are so many choices now don't let the idea of not knowing what you want of what you are good at stop you. Experiment around. Find out. That's what young adulthood is all about!

*hugs*