I hope you can get a hobby or learn to play a musical instrument or other thing like knitting and making collages. I play piano but lost a lot of it through out the years, but when i play the easy songs for me the ones i can remember i feel so much better. My therapist comes to my home 2 times a month and she's in a band and sings a song for me too. I am going to see her band play again in september. I am so lucky to have her and i really would be lost without her and i can see your point. It is hard to make friends as we don't know where to start when we are lonely with no one which is where i used to be too. I tried many things and one thing i found was this place here and i am a wise elder now as i used to spend alot of time here, but am going to college now and have to write papers so its taking all my time away. good luck and prayers your way!