How do I cope with the guilt of my now ex fiance being homeless when I know I am not responsible, nor is it my fault that he is homeless? I brought him here to my state to live with me to save him from homelessness initially (he was kicked out of his home), it did not work out between us (all went bad), so I left him after four months of him not working and me supporting both of us (not what I expected -- I expected he would get a job). He got a job after I left, but ruined it somehow and ended up hospitalized... now he is on the streets and living part time in a homeless shelter. I know that this is all his own doing and all his own fault. He was kicked out of his home for a reason, and I left him for good reasons, too. But I am going out with my friends tonight in the town right next door, but how can I possibly forget about him and even have fun when I know he is totally alone, scared and just trying to survive? I don't know how to cope with this at all. I have a big heart and just feel so badly and so guilty, even though perhaps he needs a kick in the butt to get his act together. I'm the one who convinced him to come here to be with me afterall, and now he's all alone. I offered to buy him a bus ticket home, even, but he has nowhere to go there, too. He declined the offer for now, and is trying to make it here. He will be getting food stamps and SSI soon, but in the meantime, how do I cope with all of this and even live my life and still have fun? I cannot have fun knowing he is in pain and having a rough time.
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