You have us supporting you and honestly I wouldn't suggest it if I didn't think there was a chance of you getting to feel better with it. Up state may be nice this time of year. I don't know, never been to NY. You've got this, at least give it a try. But understand some of the things they ask of you are going to be hard. Whether you go through those there, or sometime in the future your trauma is something you will have to work through to feel better. Why not do it in a place where there is so many people there to help you through it. People that understand what you are going through. Not having to wait for another appointment when you are feeling so bad. There's just so many reasons to give it a try. What's the worse thing that could happen when you go there?