I want to thank you ALL so very much, from the bottom of my heart, for all of your thoughtful replies!!!! I really appreciate your input and insights here. I would reply individually, but I'm just too exhausted mentally. I want each of you to know that your thoughtful input means a LOT to me, so THANK YOU ALL. *****HUGS******

Many words and thoughts here have resonated with me. It is empathy I feel. The guilt is only because I convinced him to move here with me. But this was also HIS choice.... I am not responsible for his choices, too.

Rose76, your words really hit home with me. He does have faulty thinking, and the way you laid it out seems to match perfectly.

You all have helped me to see that I really do not need to feel guilty.

Crypts, thank you. I am so glad to know that there are so many options available for help for him. Now it's up to him to follow through.

Last night when I went out, I actually looked on the streets to see if I could find him, as I drove to my destination. I was crying. However, I was able to compartmentalize the situation when I got there and was able to still have a good time with my friends. I told one friend what I was facing, then he smiled and said, "let's dance". So I did. Another friend said, let's just hope he's OK.

What I face also is the fact that he is suicidal, too. He went to the hospital just a few weeks ago, suicidal. He had threatened suicide every time I tried to kicked him out (which was numerous times).

Yes, he does have substance abuse problems. This is partially why I had to break up with him. He is an addict, and that became clear to me. I did not realize this fully beforehand... he said he would not drink, but then he started drinking again and abused drugs, too.

He's got mental health and substance abuse issues that are preventing him from living a full life. I do not excuse his behavior because of these issues. He needs to grow up and learn how to be a responsible adult, who can function in an adult world. I am not responsible for that, nor can I teach him that, nor should I.

He has lived off the help of his family and others for a long time now. No one will help him anymore. His entire family has cut him off, and they would rather see him sleep in the streets than offer any more help or money. That is also why I feel responsible to help him, because no one else will.

But I cannot make up for his awful family, nor should I have to. I understand the need for tough love, but if they really cared, they would get him into some sort of residential treatment program rather than allow him to live on the streets.

And they all blame me for this, too. They don't want him talking to me and would be horrified if they knew he was. I don't see why I am the bad guy here, when all I did was try to help him for four months and supported him. Sure, I made some mistakes with his family when they kicked him out. I was angry and blamed his mother for not helping him... but they've never met me, they don't know what he put me through, and they don't know half of what i did to try and help him. It makes me angry that they blame me, but I guess it's easier to blame someone else rather than yourself.

My heart does break for him. I feel such deep sadness over this, I don't even know what to do with it. If he hurts himself, I will not blame myself, but I will be devastated to say the least. I feel the need to stay in touch with him just to make sure he is OK.

As it is, I haven't heard from him since yesterday at 4 PM. I know I cannot worry myself sick wondering if he is alive, but I cannot help it. I feel like I'm possibly the only one in his life who truly cares what happens to him.

I offered him a bus ticket home. I will keep that offer because if things get really bad here, I want him to know that he can go home, to be around his friends at least, even if he still has to live in a homeless shelter.

Soon it will be cold here and I worry that he will still be on the streets. My biggest concern is suicide. I pray that he stays alive.