I just feel like I lost a significant amount of jr high, high school, and the first half of college. It seems to me like I am actually only 15 years old instead of in my early 20s. I feel behind. I don't doubt my ability to find my way i.e. get a job and all that boring stuff, but I just feel like 1-2 years (depending on the program) more of school would do me good.

How do I ask my professors for advice? Every feeling I having now is due to my personal problems such as being super depressed for most of my youth. How can I speak with them? Will they want an explanation for my anhedonia and lack of will power to do anything besides lie in bed? My ambition is real and necessary to me but unconvincing to the general public because they sense an emptiness, I think. I think all my professors hate me. They look at me and see an unapproachable void they can't understand.