I decided yesterday that if I'm not going to outright quit smoking I HAVE to cut down. I realized I smoked a pack and a half in 24 hours. I never used to be this bad unless manic. I was anxious and bored and it just got away from me. So now I'm allowing myself only one cigarette per hour. That's still almost a pack a day but I hope to reduce it slowly. I'm using an e-cig in between which I realize isn't much better but at least it's a start. One day I'll be free of this awful habit.

I only over indulged in food once last week and so far I haven't this week.

I had to quit drinking completely because of the depakote. I can't moderately drink, when I drink I binge drink. Not to the point of blacking out but a good 8-9 drinks. I was doing this every weekend, sometimes multiple times a weekend. Again, boredom. This will be my second weekend alcohol free. I wish I could drink but I don't want to take the chance.

So I'm trying to moderate my life. I don't know how long it will last but it's a start.