Been really depressed the last few days. My brain is going so slow and struggles to process anything like appointments and university classes. It in fact hurts to think. Been awake now for an hour and think I'm doing a bit better today. Having my fifth TMS soon. Will be anothe week or so before I am supposed to notice an improvement. I really hope it works as there is no hope after that. I just can't live like this, going from bad episode to bad episode every few months.

Saw a sleep specialist and he wants me to do an IP sleep study to see if I have a mild form of sleep apnea. More appointments and more money. But if they find something maybe I will feel better after treatment.

I have had a busy week which has helped. Today I am having TMS, catching up with my parents and nephew, studying then going to the gym. Will be tough when all I want to do is hide in bed but I think it will help. I am trying to do all I can to combat the depression, I don't want to give up even though I have little hope. At least if worst came to worst I will go down fighting.