Im sorry I can not tell you what this is with in you, what I can tell you is what this is in me....

in me this is normal. my treatment providers call it boredom. and selective mutism (selective mutism in me means I choose not to talk at stressful or emotional times,)

one of my treatment providers one time called it the equivalent of throwing a 5 year olds temper tantrum of holding ones breath or not talking to someone. which is normal behavior for 5 year olds. his words why throw an emotional temper tantrum of not talking when the door is always open use it, more cost effective too.

since then when I am stressed out during therapy and dont want to talk I just tell the treatment provider I dont want to talk any more and I leave, go home, go do other things that I do want to do. that past therapist was right, there was nothing forcing me to stay there so why cause myself emotional distress by staying and not talking and curling up to go to sleep. I can do that for free at home. so now I save myself money, end my session and leave.