The only thing that will work is someone else managing access. I am concerned that you want to have your own little pharmacy for some theoretical purpose. I think your recovery is far more valuable than this stash of drugs. I would turn them in at a fire station or police station (usually one or the other will take unused prescriptions for safe disposal).

I liked the wrong anti-depressants because they made me hypomanic, which is a lot like doing low dose psychedelics. I get the grins, everything I say is profound, I chuckle at nothing and have a good time. But I come off as arrogant and I babble because my mouth can't keep up with my thoughts so I skip words. If it goes further, I get delusional.